Hey Shamaria, have we cured cancer yet? Are there finally flying cars? Did we finally find the love of our lives? What’s life like? Are you okay…? What’s changed? What’s the same?
Well, how about I start off by saying that life sucks right now. Being a 10th grader at Lindblom is infuriating. Grades are dropping, I’m not really motivated to keep going, mom is adding more stress onto me, I can’t get a job until my grades are better, and most importantly, I’m scared that my choices will result in me not getting into Spelman, which is actually my new found dream college. It’s just a lot going on right now. But it’s gonna be okay. Because God’s got it.
Life has its ups and downs. Without them, life would be boring and we wouldn’t know how to do many things in life because we would underachieve and we wouldn’t have a good comprehension of things we learn everyday. The point is, right now, I’m super stressed about things in the future, and life, and my grades so that I can be able to get into a great college someday. And I know, I know that I shouldn’t stress about those things, but I can’t help it. There is SO much pressure from my mom, my stepdad, and from myself because I raised the bar for us because from such a young age, we’ve dreamed of becoming something great and helpful to the people of the world. And from that moment, we decided to not take anything less than an A grade.
NOW in high school, it’s different because it’s always been so easy, but I’m finally being challenged and I like it, but I don’t like it at the same time because it’s not something I’m used to and they aren’t reflecting my true potential on paper. We have 2 weeks left till finals, and I need to lock in. You’ve already done this so I’m sure that based on the way you turned out you were successful! But enough about school, let’s talk about mental health. Are you okay? Have you found true peace and forgiveness in yourself? I know that it’s something that we struggle with, but hopefully, with the help of much needed therapy over the years, you’re doing much better now. But I can’t relate, lol! My mental health has actually gotten slightly worse throughout the course of May-2024 to today’s time of November-2024. We’ve been through failed talking stages, more work to possibly graduate early, but then finding out that we can’t graduate early, having to let go of failed friendships, and so much more. But I’m okay, I’ve adapted to having issues and not telling people about them, and temporarily moving past them to avoid confrontation or just having to talk about it because I will either break down crying, or in certain situations, just talking about my feelings makes me uncomfortable. But I’ll be fine, I always turn out just fine. The point is, life has its ups and downs but we’re successful every time.
Anyways… let’s move on from that because it’s starting to be very depressing.
Shamaria Williams